.: reeys say she needs total silence NOW :.: August 2005

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

The Pussymiao...

How would you feel when you are driving and you saw a plastic/ paper flying on the road.. and when you get too near that you can't avoid it anymore, you ended up noticing that it was a poor white cat being bang by a car ahead of you.. and since you are too near that you cannot avoid it anymore, you ended up going over it?! The whole scene keeps appearing in my mind, there goes the huu-haa over the countdown! darn.. it feels like going over a big stone or whatever .. gross... I am so sorry kitty... and this wasn't the 1st time already! =x The very 1st time happened few years back.. I swear I saw that dead cat on the road.. I wanted to avoid it.. but I was on a very curvy road.. avoid avoid and the left tyres ended up going over it! mah piangggg eh!

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The Birdie...

Getting yourself a talking parrot seems interesting and entertaining at 1st. You'll be vey proud of your little birdie as it greets you whenever it sees you and say amazing things that it is capable of doing rather than any other pets like the dawggie, pussy or even the gold fish! However, how would you feel after having the birdie for couple of months, and the stoopid lil birdie keeps telling you the same old boring sentence over and over again? It is like before the birdie can see you, you already know in mind what birdie will be saying! pomplekkkkkkkkkk! Suggestion, put birdie at a very corner of your house where birdie can hardly sees you.. walk to birdie only when you are having insomnia.. brilliant?

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The Name....
A piece of advise.. next time when you get married...and in the process of being parents blablabla... and you are in the midst of getting a name for your lovely little girlie... never give name like what I had.. I got my name from Aunt Sue. After she failed to persuade mummy to give me to her as daughter, she get the honour to choose the name for me, and Carina was the name. Then as I grow up, more and more names given by friends, like carie, carine, ah na, curry and etc etc etc.. but recently.... someone new at workplace left me a memo and it shows; to: Karena .. now what the fuck on earth is he thinking about? pft! nevermind... and then colleagues seen it and they started to call me that name, or even macarena.. that is just SO not cool! Another joker I met down the club thru a friend starts calling me Carine... and after calling a few more times, it sounded like Chlorine! oh damn! -_-

Sunday, August 28, 2005

and KiCiMiaO says " the night is still young "

Yesterday was one of the best Saturday night out.. perhaps it was the environment.. or the entertainment..or the crowd... or perhaps it was all the effect from Long Island? long island tea that is.. well see, i am just such a good girl after all..just tea! heee heeee!!!! but then i guess i just couldn't drink that much anymore.. I was wondering why they insist on ordering long island for me... and now i know why.. after finishing the 1st long island.. i was already halfway up heaven! aha haaa!

So the place wasn't that bad, and I really wonder how come it has been there for so long but then I just couldn't be bothered to go there? The music was alright as you can get all kind of music there, and thank God the DJ was someone who is against techno! heeh hehhh! and talking about the DJ, I think he was one of the coolest DJ ever seen so far.. I mean for local DJ in clubs.. most of them are like damn stuck up cuz 'oh I am a DJ u know?!' but this one was totally different! haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Way up, dude!

So, music was alright... drink was cool... DJ was cool too.. and then the entertaiment! Fight!! ting ting ting!! hahaha!!!! I saw a bunch of guys fighting.. hahaaha! damn funny.. they were on the road.. fighting like cats.. or rather call them, pussy... ahahaha! one guy pushed the other one and he ended up breaking one Toyota Unser's air press.. poor thing.. lolz...

Thursday, August 25, 2005

and they say "Honesty is the BEST policy" ..

The Woman in my life

I just love to talk to her sometimes... it gives you the feeling of strangling-suffocating-heartpumping-wannaexplode-geram-argh-constipated kinda feelings.. but then by end of the conversation, I felt glad to talk to her.

This morning went pretty good though it started to rain early in the morning. I had breakfast with her and a simple breakfast turned out to be so chaotic when they extracharge, oh yet so noisy. I just want a relaxing meal in the morning, hellohhhhhhhhh!!!!! -_-

As I get up the car and was about to drop her home then me heading to work, she saw me in my glasses and she gave a comment.. well, aduh so very the sakit hati but then.. still it leaves a smile on my face... well, she said nothing much but.. "aiyoh... since when you have this glasses which makes you look like a fly?" a fly?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! lalat u meant?! uwah sakit hati sial.. hahahahaha! well, anyway thanks for the comment tho, mum!

See? This is the kind of people that i like.. not those kind of people who goes

'oh u r so so cute so cute laaaaaaa' <- well hellohh... i dun look like any hello kitty or mashimaro ok? this kinda statement sound so fake.. and lame, don't ya think so?

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Part of A Fool

I've been there before

and I just can't let go

The memories and pain of the hurt I know

Now deep in the night, and there's passion inside?

Dare I follow my heart?

An innocent smile,

then a walk in the night

Then it's dinner at home served with candlelight

And it's been quite a while since I felt good inside

Dare I follow my heart?

Do I feel something special inside of you?

Do I know what you really think of me?

And the raindrops keep falling into my heart

And I just can't deny what feels so right

Do I let myself go and feel the rain

Or should I play with caution and refrain?

Whatever I do, when it comes to you

I know sometimes love plays the part of a fool

I know what's in store though

I can't say much more

A chance worth the taking has opened its doors

And I can't say I love you,

and I can't say I don't

But I do wish I knew

A song that still lingers in my mind until this very day... This is a song sent to me by an online friend, and I love this song so much, the very moment I listened to it. For those who know mystream.fm last time, I am sure they know about this song too.. It has been a long time, and today I listened to this song again... There is this special feelings when I listen to this song, no matter when, or where... call it weird, but it is true :-/ well, no more love songs so what about a song from Simple Plan - Untitled? :) Good enough baby, watch the MTV and it is a very good message from Simple Plan just for the fans ... a mistake that should not happen....

If only I knew that it would hurt so badly... I would have refrain all of these to happen...

If and only if I knew............................

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Penang, the food paradise.. as so they claimed it to be.... As I was about to leave office for lunch today, it started to rain heavily.. thus the reason me and my colleague postponed our lunch to half an hour later. Reaching the destination, the temptation of having a hot bowl of soup noodle is good enough with a weather like this. I then decide to have TOMYAM for lunch, yummy yummy.. and my colleague followed as well...

The food was just SO alright.. yum yum.. but then still couldn't beat the one I had at Raja Uda.. as the tomyam steamboat is still the best that I had so far... after the satisfaction of having a tasty food, I walked back happily.. and go back to the chilling cold office... so cold.. so cold.. even with this thick jacket that I have here, I'm still freezing... perhaps that's the strong reason for W to say I will die if I ever face winter.. hahahaa!

Sitting here at my place, only to notice my shirt is dirty! :( All because of the tomyam soup.. not much.. just a small little stain.. but then hey.. I am wearing a light yellow, mind you! This has erm, never really happen to me as I will be in dark outfit most of the time.. and I always laugh at W in his white uniform, while eating wantanmee or currymee, his favourite food with soup that can leave some decoration on ur clothes! Seeing the stain on my shirt reminds me dearly of PC too .. used to dirty her white tee while having wantanmee.. hiak hiakz.. anyway..... :( i am missing you dearly..... 2 years don't pass by just so easily, you know?

Stress.. is this the reason of me eating more and more each day? omg.. one day i will just end up looking like a penguin.. help!! Having breakfast at home.. I feel hungry by 10am, and I am fortunate enough that mummy prepares me a lunchbox.. or should I say.. a BREAKFASTBOX of breads with PEANUT BUTTER, oh so yummy! and by 12pm, I will leave for lunch.. latest 12.30pm... by 4pm, everyone will feel hungry again and will start to find some food to munch.. but most of the time we will end up feeding ourself with fast food like McDonalds! yippie!! :D Eat 1st, worry later! haa haa..

Sunday, August 14, 2005

All the late entries

It is just another bright Sunday morning, before the haze attack that is..

and a beautiful sourvenior from a fucked up stranger!

This might be a little late but then.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! :) Well, however this is the cutest birthday cake I have ever seen in my life before! :D Pinky piggy! erks, though the nose melted a bit.. haa haa!

and this is what you can do with the ice cream cake container :)

Picture time!

Alright.. tell me what is not right in this picture....

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Untitled

I have been working like a slave to the company... it has been too obvious to everyone close to me I guess... til yesterday when I got home, Dad talked to me, saying I do not have my social life anymore.. there's nothing else but only work... and he emphasize on that... Oh yeah Dad, i know it.. and does that makes me a workaholic? Well, I will try not to be one alright? I can still remember how I used to laugh at my friend when we are all going out and she's still at office... and now I am in the same boat? Oh what the heck? I will try my best to make it to go out tomorrow night!! Heck cares about work! :P But then I thought Dad never really like the idea of me going out at night? Uhm, it is hard to understand... maybe what he is trying to hint to me is that I am not spending enough time with them, my folks and I really know it.. I do hope I can spend more time with them too!!

It has been quite some time since the last yumchar session that I had with friends, and this time around, WN said she is too old for clubbing, and thus to only include her in if and only if we are going for tea.. but then, english tea also can, right? ;) Another friend said, loud music don't suit him anymore.. he's old already... AIYO.. what the heck is wrong with everyone? Last week, I was being conned and I ended up spending my Saturday night out at the damn k bar.. yulks.. and that is really what I felt, suits this kind of OLD people! -_- heck heck heck... it is really BORING, i tell you!!!

Having a long lost friend calling up, telling me that he got involved in an accident and was comma, hospitalized blablabla.. recovering.. blablabla.. for more than 6 months ain't funny... it ain't a joke.. I thought it was really a joke and keep on telling him not to joke about it and in the end when he keep on telling me that it is the truth, I believe him.. I mean, why would he want to joke about it anyway.. right? 6 months of recovery, resulting a girl who has been with him for 7 years to dump him.. having loads of friends to avoid him, or stop keeping in touch with him.. bla bla bla.. makes him feels terrible.. but then to me, I felt.. if you were to see this in the positive side.. well.. this is the time for you to see it clearly.. who is REALLY your friend after all..

Sunday, August 07, 2005

The Talk

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I have known him for several years and we never really have a talk like this before. It was usually the meeting up, just to see if you are still alive, doing fine those kinda thing... and tease and then blah... we say goodbye.... and it has been years since I really go out with him and friends...

Was it because of what that has been accumulating in my mind and I am going insane? Or was it the influence from the alcohol? Or the terrible contaminated air? Well, it couldn't be alcohol cuz no matter what happened, you can never blame the alcohol :) I am sober! All I know was that night, my eyes started to feel pain.. and I was feeling fucking bored there, I wanted to go back but I wasn't the one driving! Darn.

We left when everyone started to leave. I told him this is one of the most boring Saturday night out that I have been before and it almost killed me! haa haa! The whole journey was alright.. though we left early and abandoned the love birds there to have time for themselves.. we headed home as both were damn fucking tired.. and BORED... all the mood for Saturday night just went dow the drain with the boring environment.. all thanks to the stupiak couple who suggested to go to the oh-so-boring-place in town... please kill me instead of asking me to go there again!

After mengantuk like a cartoon in the car, I finally reached.. we talked a while before I leave, and that's when the catching up with each other after centuries begins.. we talked and there were issues on history and we laughed our lungs out.. bla bla bla.. and when the topic arises.. we talked about it and I just don't understand how come tears starts flowing down my cheek.. I mean.. what's with the tears.. what's with this feelings that is coming back to me after all the things that happened? After all the hurt and scars, now the tears? God damn it.. and yeah.. he said I am being stupid enough.. Well, yeah.. I know... else I wouldn't have let all these happened! Bleh!!!

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Mission for the day : To clean up my little room that looks more like a jumanji now !

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Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Goodbye... til we see again

They said.. people tend not to appreciate the company and things thet have in their life til it is gone.. How true is that? I have not lost it.. just that.. I will be apart from my loved ones.. I am so sorry for not spending more time with you guys..

Four weeks passed just like that and today, they left.. I have spend just so little time with them.. and this morning started with a hug goodbye and tears .. I just know I am going to miss them so much! How I wish I can just spend a little more time to send them off at the airport.. but I can't.. and when we talked on the phone, it seems so near... yet so far :(

The whole day at work seems so blur.. I keep on thinking about them.. The moment I got home, everything seems different.. So quiet.. so.. not used to it anymore :( no one is at the door greeting me anymore...

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It is now the time for me to start appreciate people around me.. right from now on!!

Monday, August 01, 2005

PAUSED

The end for now :) Have a nice day ahead

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